I felt led, at a specific moment while ago, to drop what I was doing and head to the mailbox.
Awaiting a package for my husband from my mom, I thought I knew what I would find.
It was just mail.
An electric bill and something from Empire Finance.
In which, I read, EMP… RE-finance.
You want us to refinance our home,” I suggested to the Holy Spirit, as I thought that I knew what He was saying.
Until I looked closer at what was inside.
No where, was the new, super-cheap low rate.
Instead, as I opened the envelope, I realize it’s one of those goofy, fake checks that promise me something for nothing!
A higher interest rate, if you will.
at the mailbox,
Was that what I saw, and what it was actually saying, were not the same.
That little yellow symbol threw me off.
This was not an invitation to refinance.
It was a sugar- coated, something for nothing offer.
It was a get-a-fast result and work it off for way longer.
Isn’t that what refinancing does as well.
Not as bad?
I say to myself.
It’s a cheaper rate…
But, it’s still, drawing interest.
What I really found in the mail…
Is my attempt to justify my hypocrisy.
God meets us where we are.
All of us.
Some of us are refinancing to get a cheaper rate than what we already have-
Gaining ground to financial freedom.
Others, are settling for a quick fix with long term deficits.
And others, own their homes that they worked towards, debt free.
That’s where I want to be.
But I’m not.
So, I shouldn’t look on the mail I received today with contempt.
A simple, no thank you, would suffice.
A Thank you God, that I’m not where I want to be, but I’m also not where I was.
A THANK YOU FATHER, for showing me what I should really see, not just what I think I see.
I hope this blesses your heart today.